Advice from a paranoid schizophrenic.
A story or two.
Many years ago, when I was on the psych ward there was this one mature adult man who was depressed.
They were trying out group therapy , where the inmates could spread their diseased thoughts and ideas to one another. The more the merrier.
The theme was things we look forwards to in the future.
I can’t remember if I got my chance. I would have probably told of getting to play computer/video games once again.
The one mature adult who I mentioned in the start got his chance to speak, and he spoke of a specific date he was going to kill himself.
We all went “Woah”, and the therapy-meeting was disbanded.
Later on , on some random day the suicidal mature adult man had turned the piece of shit TV on and was trying to get a station.
The TV was unstable, so he got angry and hit the side of the box.
I observed another patient in the back with a device in his hand. He had a $20.00 multi TV remote jammer.
I confronted the TV jammer guy and said “I saw what you did!”.
He quickly made the tiny device disappear and protested his innocence.
I had no proof of his messing with the TV to anger the depressed guy. I couldn’t do anything.
If the depressed guy had got angry enough to break the TV, the nurses (in charge of the ward) and the hospital would not have been happy with a broken TV.
So my idea that the patient with a remote control jammer as an agent of psychiatry is questionable.
But indeed the TV jammer “patient” who was amused by manipulating the depressed guy to an outburst of anger may have been helping him, as the depressed guy was getting his internal depression transformed to outside physical (healthy) anger .
I don’t know what was going on and I never will, just be aware that you may be being played/manipulated for others amusement, or for your “health”. Maybe its good, maybe its bad, God/Devil knows the answer.
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Myself (recently) after I moved to my new place, I had an incident.
I had no space for my bike. I decided to keep it outside in view of my window.
One day I took it for a spin and as I rode down the street one of the peddles with the metal angle that connects it to the axle fell off.
I laughed.
I got off and I found two critical bolts removed from the bike. Two special 9/16 bolts. Out of all the vandalism a thief or crazy person could do, they chose these special bolts. Luckily I had an inventory of bike parts and could replace the bolts and have a working bike.
No it just didn’t fall off as things become noticeably loose first. And more importantly two bolts would not loosen, then turn several times to come off the bolt and disappear at the same moment in time along with the weather resistant plastic cap that makes it look good.
What was the tricksters message? He had stolen my nuts (bolts)?
What motivated him to go to the trouble, as it must have been difficult to do when it was locked to a fence? It is one of the tightest bolts on a bike to loosen , a bolt with a reversed thread. Along with having the specific tool.
Well since I had the replacement parts the joke was on him I guess.






brass band
we Canadains be pirates!
teen band. sounded good. Stevie Ray Vaughan style
dancing up a storm!!!
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